okay, maybe you sent out some kind of etheric mass dream wave, because last night i happened to have a (fairly nonsensical) dream that was a crossover between CTE and naoki urasawa's monster. i feel a little embarrassed even recounting it to be honest but it was one of those dreams with a fairly coherent plotline but locations that shifted and blended seamlessly into one another, so the characters were variously in an art gallery, a shopping mall, a lynchian public restroom and a maximum security prison below said shopping mall (?) which could only be accessed thru its parking garage with a special keycard. i felt that was very onbrand for your works. anyway it was grimmer and tenma acting as escorts to deliver rubicon to this mall-prison except they got separated, tenma was mysteriously stabbed and grimmer blamed rubicon even though it was literally impossible for him to have done so because he wasn't even in the same room/tenma was lying in a pool of blood at the bottom of a concrete stairwell, which rubicon obviously cannot go down. i was woken up just as he was about to start evil monologuing (defense monologuing?). i remarked on how amusing this was to my friends over the course of the day. so to go to sleep and wake up the following day not only with a CTE update but to find out someone ELSE has been dreaming of you was a surreal experience to say the least

when i was a younger kid (10-13) my dad would take me out on late night 4 hour drives during which i would stare out the window into the darkness. i got a tingling sensation of anticipation staring out into the dark, like the universe was going to reveal some big secret, play it like a special card. the thrill of this would give me an erection and chills/goosebumps all over my body, and in retrospect i wondered if the big secret was revealed to me after all in the form of learning how to mastrabate. this hyperspecific moment in my psychosexual development is what a lot of your works bring me back too, and i jus wanted to say thanks for the cosmic wonder boner nostalgia.

perhaps a stupid question as i don't know or understand anything about music or sounds but i was wondering how you did the speech sounds in maggot therapy... the discordant droningness is like what i hear in my head when i think of trying to give my characters voices lol

We've talked about the connection between "Your Mother Has Fallen Out of Love with You" and S3 of "Cunt Toward Enemy" (a youth being put in a box by a father figure, symbolic or literal), but I only just realised that the narrator of "protection from gravity" also talks about putting his abuse-object in a suitcase when going places. Just wondering if there are any deeper connections here. Also, we need more stories about boys getting boxed.

I had a dream last night that borrowed a lot of themes from your work and also had a character in it who was you! You were giving me constructive but extremely brisk feedback on a story I'd written which was like space imperial torture set in a Mario Odyssey subarea. I looked down at your legs and you had a layer of stubby feathers coming in like you had recently moulted. I was staying at my old music teacher's house and he kept interrupting to make us listen to his shitty Logic beats and offer excessive sympathy for whatever must have happened to make our stories "so sad". You realised you didn't have to be there and left. Old teacher had some sourdough garlic bread in his kitchen which he had explicitly told me he was saving but I gifted it to you in the doorway on a savage impulse of justice because your time had been wasted by this strange situation.

Old teacher came into the kitchen and tried to kill me for my ingratitude and appropriation of the bread, he had a knife but I stabbed him pre-emptively with such force that he could not even complete 1 stab of me only deliver an agonisingly slow shallow wound as the strength went out of his arm. His house was on the top floor of a shopping centre and I escaped to the lower levels.

I thought that I should probably call my current music teacher, who is nice and helps me a lot, then realised that my phone was still in the house and I didn't know if 2-3 gut stabs with a short blade was enough to bleed out from after 20 or so minutes or if he would still be alive and planning my death. I thought of luring someone who could go into the house first and get lurched at in the dark while I retrieved my phone. I found someone sweet who I went to school with but the dream deleted her. Then I was back on the silent threshold of the house with one light deep inside, not knowing if the guy was waiting for me and feeling like my life had to be over regardless but I still really wanted to call my other teacher. My wound hurt a lot for a shallow wound. Thanks for the textures!

Not sure if this has been asked before but are you okay with people writing fanfic about your works? Just wanted to make sure

played and loved sunshowers! will you ever revisit these characters again? even if it's just in a sort piece of work! i love them both so dearly and i need to see more of them!

there is A question b u r n i n g within my diaphragm such that my lungs smell like sulfur the likes of which krakatoa could not produce. how do you pronounce oenone

i feel weirdly represented by cancer prize being a coprophile. in my times being a sex freak online it always has seemed like poop is this forbidden frontier. like all other "gross" body fluids are fine to get horny about but poop is just, quietly ignored or sliced off into an alt account or questionable sites bc even these alleged no limit sex freaks can't handle Looking at coprophilia let alone being into it. anyways. thanks for the poop !! 💩✨️

named my friend's Lovense toy Insul your work is a great inspiration to us xoxo

do you get to kiss brother in sunshower [importan!t]

sunshowers runs very laggy on my computer :-[ is there something i can do to mitigate that? never had this problem w/an rpgmaker game before

Have you played any games by Parun (Heisei Pistol Show/Re:Kinder)? it seems like something very in line with ur work, big hallucinogenic nightmare stock asset wonderlands with emotionally tormented effete boys and horror movie schlock gore and meditations on love. Has a similar essence in terms of how they write about tragedy, I feel like there's a quality of "abuse hyperreality" in their art as in yours of like, some terrible event(s) cycling through your head over and over and distorting into something different, like, becoming cartoonish or dreamlike but still horribly texturally real, and infecting ur fantasies and the world around u. something like that.

have you heard of neospring (the retrospring offshoot)? might be a good replacement inbox once this one is finally sunsetted

i just finished angelbride after long anticipation, and i am absolutely delighted. the little choices were a great touch, i'm a huge fan of the more pious options. i'm feeling all sorts of ways about it and i want to make more people read it

have you ever read kami no kodomo by nishioka kyoudai? i just remembered it and then thought of you,(there is feces and guts, perversion, violence against children, violence by children, and so on,)

have u ever read good sex illustrated?

hello. i just finished reading/playing "With Those We Love Alive"
it was very good and i love your writing. thank you for making it.

i really gotta say with successive rereads of seriweak i just fall in love more with oenone as a character and what she represents + the knowledge that she's just as controlling as insul, just softer, and arguably more dangerous for it because of the conformist stasis she tries to enact on trianon behind a veil of wanting to make him feel better and be successful. it's cruel to force someone to live out your dream instead of asking them their own, and maybe she would have known that had she ever truly seen him, but without insul as the catalyst oenone being able to meet trianon where he actually is is impossible. i like to imagine what a nightmare being actually married to oenone would be for him, like the therapist ending of vesp in its sense of merged/subsumed personhood and domestic confinement; i feel like you could pull off such a scenario beautifully. boybride unknown...

angelbride was utterly phenomenal in both atmosphere, writing and artwork. i want the full drawing of the angel hung on my wall. i had just had a really awful day prior to reading so this was like coming home and someone thoughtful had already made and set out warm food for you. so glad to have mired myself in your horrors <3 i'm having fun going through the rest of the book too!

https://www.sciencephoto.com/media/303267/view i see beautiful xrafstaric presences in these mayfly muscles...

I just came to your x profile through Ada's Rook album(which you worked on the album cover) listening non stops on some songs there, and I must you really did a good job, especially in your personal art as a someone who is not into that kind of thing and mentioning different kinkies from mine

i am deeply curious to know what a children's book written by you would be like. or perhaps a picture book...i feel like there is a small subgenre of "children in horrible situations much like yours, readerchild" that i have not seen too much of as of late (series of unfortunate events, many things by roald dahl). a lot of childmedia lately seems to be "don't worry child, the Adults will take care of it" so i am wondering what you would write about, as you write very well about Bad Situations where The Adults Will Not Take Care of It, And Probably Are Making It Worse

i got hit by a car some months ago (am basically fine now 😎👌) but thought u might like the story- was on a lil escooter at 4:30am going to work, got rearended by a driver presumably not paying attention, slid up on the hood, hit the windshield (and shattered it) at which point the driver braked, i rolled forward and landed on my lower face/teeth which i dont remember (is pain to blacking out a 10/10 or 11/10?) then slid on the asphalt on my forehead. remember thinking "am i going to die? maybe" then internal dialogue was silent. til i stopped sliding and instinct brought me to stand up and say WHAT THE FUCK at the car, then wiggle fingers and toes. looked for scooter, couldnt find it, thought "i just got hit by a car i guess i should call 911" and uh. yeah. end damage was broken front teeth, lots of facial abrasions and one on knee, stitches to upper lip + forehead, tiny nose fracture and slight deformity to nose and jaw. got a deviated septum now. had huge bruises on my legs ig from hitting handlebars? and i've kept my hoodie with bloodstains as a souvenier. perhaps if u ever have a char get carwrecked and live this helps.. not safe to act out like u did w some SW scenes but i have the accidental lived experience. also i'd guess the driver was gay so it was a violent meeting of gays cant drive

it's by no means a recent work of yours and i understand if you may have disavowed it somewhat for personal reasons as u have a fair amount of your older artwork but i keep rereading psycho nymph exile and turning it over in my head. i live in a very bad situation right now and i have a long distance boyfriend whom i love dearly but obviously cannot see in person yet. a lot of conventional fluffy romances where two characters just meet by coincidence, happen to fit two common archetypes and experience mundane problems + have relatively little drama and Good Normal Sex with each other feel like transmissions from an alien world to me at best and death pressing against me at worst. it is so very hard for me to hope that a better or at least bare minimum life is possible and isidol and vellus' relationship channeled some extremely raw feelings for me. i hope to god i can walk hand in hand with my boyfriend one day with a bag of kudzu buns, because this isn't the life i want to die in. i'm really glad you wrote it

I leave an offering at your altar o haruspex. Once I got so into a video game that I hardly walked at all for two weeks. As it turns out, you need to walk around for your digestive system to function properly. Consequently, two weeks of greasy shitty gamer food impacted hard into my rectum like a concrete apple. I spent hours trying to pass it and fissured my anus from the strain. At this point the advice is to go to the hospital so that the nurses can help you birth the thing. Instead, I got a butter knife and stuck it in there to start prying bits off. (Not medical advice.) Thankfully this worked and I eventually it slid out in big chunks like apple slices. This happened at my mom's house and nobody ever found out, thank all that is holy. I am however still haunted by the UTI I caught from doing this in a half-full tub, thinking that this would help soften the stool. What do you read in my entrails?

P.S. Tub was cleaned and knife destroyed.

happy to report that in the interest of promoting torture literacy i have requested seriweak be added to my local library's catalogue ::]

i wanted to thank you for writing the way you do and about the things you do because it made me realize there’s really no rules when it comes to creative work and i can type in run-on sentences like i’m trying to puke all the words out in a single breath because that’s actually super sick and it’s how my stupid brain works anyways and if we’re honest it makes text so much more interesting to read. i was actually able to finish something short and dirty and sweet that’d been knocking around my brain for months-years because of this so thank you very much from the bugs in my brain to yours. 🪱🖤✨

Does Perfect's suit "do" anything? I assume it's a kind of armor of some sort or form. I remember clicking "The suit sanitizes the action" in MT because I was curious if it -literally- sanitized things or not lol

the true legend of tails prower made me cry, she deserved so much better and she almost got there but didnt... i wish she gets to run off with rouge and be happy. and amy rose too!!

do you ever imagine crossover events for your characters if they come from delineated stories? like how might trianon interact with rubicon or cancer, etc

just wanted to let you know i use a peeled off miralax drug facts label as my bookmark for your works <3

“whiplash ballet medfet” is all my dreams coming true at once. cant believe you’ve done this. ALSO i think… and have thought for a long time… that trianon and nina from black swan would be friends. they have retard angel twin dna and they are both fantasy autistic torture victims who metabolise all evil to fuel their own transformations. gay stuntmen rolling through life changing injuries. cockroach girls! nina’s world is way more bleak imo. she need friendship or the honest/direct violence she fantasises about... or both! this may very well mean nothing to you i just got excited when i saw ballet talk. thanks in advance for all the fucking incredible shit you’re planning!!!!!

https://youtu.be/Jf126Z_hy7I I made a review of Torture Works (it’s very positive, don’t worry, just thought maybe you’d like to see)

if one were to draw tria fanart…. how would one submit it to you…

heya, um.. this is kind of stupid and random, but im in a google doc named 'schronheit'.. theres like hundreds of pages with a bunch of people typing up their thoughts and i have vague memories of writing on it as a kid... i suddenly stumbled upon it and am desperately trying to find where it came from and how i even found it when i was younger - for some reason it lead me the game 'zeitgeist' and then to here. answers probably no, but, do you know anything about it?

Cancer Prize contribution: I have turned things around for myself gastrically but one wildcard is that I have bad period shits that sometimes tear my anus and cause confusion/fusion between my cunt blood and blood from my glass bones paper skin ass. However, Cancer truly speaks to me in his precarious mix of household experiences! I spent the back half of my childhood in an outwardly normal middle class home but with torture and neglect, and I had off and on hygiene problems (side note: the dad in Your Mother Has Fallen Out of Love is my dad, never seen or felt that psychology so strongly in a story, thank you from the bottom of my heart). So I would go to my good school in my nice school uniform reeking of bacterial vaginosis, trying to keep my legs closed all day, skipping lessons and not doing anything just hiding in the toilet because it was safe and private.

It was also mandatory for students to write with cartridge-loaded fountain pens unless they had an extenuating circumstance. I wanted to do everything the real children were doing so I tried it but I am an inveterate autistic chewer and kept biting through the end of the pen/cartridge and it would explode in my mouth and one time I swallowed a lot of ink and had to go throw up and later had vivid blue diarrhoea, and while I was at the mirror trying to scrub the ink out of my mouth some older girls came in and they regarded me coolly and laughed at me behind their hands. Please enjoy the HOT SHAME of this memory

i really like how rubicon is just allowed to be presented as unambiguously sexy and desirable to many within the specific context of his story. it doesnt justify anything he does (though ofc you've long since moved on from petty and simplistic morality fables), it's just there. i dont know that ive ever seen any other story that is explicitly about "this wheelchair-bound crossdressing castrated burn victim is the sexiest creature alive," because people who do find that attractive are considered perverts (see: the fan response to people wanting to fuck curly from mouthwashing in his post-burn body), and really i think that's somehow crueler than just simply acknowledging him as a being with sexual desires in his own right. im glad that he sucks, and im glad that he's sexy. may he make everything explode forever

not a cancer prize experience, but a riparian one!!! i remember distinctly that around the time you released light concentrations, i threw up chocolate after getting nic sick from a particularly strong cigarette. it was a little bit pink... very strange. it stands as an important experience to me!

in response to a question about muscles you said "the primary modality of physical cultivation in my universe is through dance" and that + the rest of it is driving me crazy. i am a former ballet dancer and i think ballet is more like something that you would make up to torture twinks than something real. i did other kinds of dance after but most of them were kind of the same, just desperately throwing my body into pleasing shapes, pain, failing and never stopping. ballet was the cruelest though. its espoused values of purity and gentleness can tell you how fucked up and evil it is. it eats toddlers. have you ever seen a foot stretcher? i used one. i danced en pointe really badly and theres nothing sadder and more pathetic than that. i still miss it. if you dont cut ur toenails super short your pointe shoes will push them back and make them turn purpleblack and fall off. i could go on about this for hours. i would love to know your thoughts. kisses

I'm a fan of your story "Rabbits Cry Different" (I know it's not one of your more famous ones, but it surprised me by how good it was), and would like to recommend it. Is there anywhere it can be read online? Obviously it's fine if there isn't.

Thank you. We need more small limp soft penises. This is so important to know about cancer. Thank you so much for your work. More small dicks!!!!

is INNOCENT pro or anti circumcision? follow up question is cancer circumcised?

i like very much that even throughout your bugposting sickgrindset, you still like making sure your fans are healthy and not hurting themselves. it's nice to see! - [vomit] Faker

i became a coffee drinker bc of ur stories and i want to say thank you for the folgers rec i am now properly caffeinated . headcanoning that these cherries passed through an emotionally neglected twink

Have you read anything by Moto Hagio?

if we're sharing cancer experiences i have a 24/7 bladder infection and have to take antibiotics literally every day and they don't know what's wrong. a tragedie. so they (doctors)were like just take these every day sorry. always in pain anyways

have you listened to infected girls by electric six. it's about a bugchaser with many enthusiastic participants but honestly it can be Anything infection related

woke up from a dream in which i was writing an essay, for college, about the thematic uses of trauma in... cunt toward enemy and/or berserk? surely this is only because i've been thinking about both stories a dizzying amount lately. but, wow, two great tastes that kind of go so well together. two things i've been recommending to friends. the slippery simultaneity of dream exudate was onto something i think. CTE could stand for chronic traumatic encephalopathy too. cuntdamage in noggin (from all the explosions!!!)

my cancer prize experiences are the one time i got a UTI so bad it hurt in my kidney and i cried cuz i couldn't sleep. and the one time i was gonna throw up from a migraine and i was kneeling over a toilet bowl full of bong water and i wanted to sext somebody on omegle so they could get off on that. and the colony of ringworm i grew all over my back. i wanna draw him having all of these experiences.... and WORSE

Heyo! Since reaching the current ends of both 18 foot leash scoutverse and cunt toward enemy (eagerly awaiting more filth), I've been thinking about suitcases. Because like. Suitcases are the peculiar link between these two otherwise radically different series, in a strange way? Like. Both Cancer Prize and Rubicon were restrained in suitcases as a form of torture, and that's just peculiar. I guess in a strictly practical way a suitcase is an efficient way to transport a child, and I know Rubicon isn't technically a child but there's a childlike quality to him? And then I just started thinking about the connection between the two, and Cancer is very much defined by his innocence, and Rubicon is a terrorist and a murderer, but there's still some kind of innocence to him anyways, maybe just because of how brutally fucked up he is. There isn't really a question here, just something I noticed, hope you have a happy holidays anyways <3

have you ever read pure trance by junko mizuno? stuff about its world and gore/violence and gender feels, i wouldn’t say similar to yours, the style and character-distance from the reader is very different, and so the stuff it’s closest to is very different from the stuff your work is closest to, but its trying to make a similar-shaped wreckage of its respective adjacent subgenres iykwim

Chabiby if you ever do vore im gonna go cwazy crazy i think you could write the horror eroguro of consumption and erotique digestion so well (this isn’t a request I’m just trying to hype you up to get grosser get gross get icky pls lower the rent prices at porp city go insane mode on my pp im here for u to write more pukeshit u already serve the most primo capital f Filth on da planet I read every text from you and gain a fresh appreciation for the romantic grotesque repulselove of life also have u ever played the metal gear series? There’s good boy torture in those mines, a humble rec-req for you, you do hurt(comfort) like no one else does)

i donthave anything to ask but i'm in love with your work ❤️❤️❤️

I like that thing u wrote so much I pee myself

Hello. I am not any of the prior muscle anons. I am titty anon. I just wanted to say that I enjoy the way you describe breasts throughout CTE, in the brief moments they're foregrounded. I like the friction that they possess - they're constraining, incompressable, limit ghe flexibility of the body. I like and want my boobs but that is an aspect of my experience with them that I hardly see expressed anywhere else. Thanks for that.

[yeast anon] i thought i sent in another ask but it may have been eaten? i would feel so honored if you used my horrible infection story as an element in one of your works! as a matter of fact the day after sending that in it spread from my cunt to my ass AND i caught a godawful case of the flu that im only just now beginning to recover from... my xrafmas was tonally appropriate perhaps but not at all fun to experience. i really got spitroasted there. (don't worry i have plenty of rest sugar and fluids. and acetamenophen or however it's spelled). but yes, if you did include something inspired by that i would treasure it forever... wishing you a merry xrafmas and a happy puke year ::-]

if we are sharing embarrassing cancer prize type experiences. i got my first yeast infection and didnt realize it for several days despite being in pain when i got off 😭 i had a new hole in me and didnt know. and when i did finally realize what it was i thought something about was kind of hot because the discharge looks like cum, got deeply embarrassed by this, and then remembered thats the exact thought process cuntboy cancer prize would have about himself

I cannot wait to see how well torture works on the local queer book club.

Different anon from the other two exercise anons but it always stuck out to me that Trianon and Lazur are both runners. I loved what it represented for both of them and related to it a lot. A solitary intense fearful cope that means the grownups can’t catch you and turn you into one of them; also a tricky thing when you have ptsd and all movement feels deranged and your reward mechanisms are broken so it just hurts, but at the same time it makes sense. You can thrash in public and no one stops you. Not a question just a thing I liked!!

different anon from muscle anon but when that was initially sent in my FIRST thought was greenwich. specifically greenwich getting off from having her face repeatedly mashed into the bathroom mirror. she seems like just enough of an endorphin freak to crave exercise to me

how do you feel about muscles or working out? to me it seems like a form of cellular masochism, lots of things going on there, or a form of euphoric self punishment. do you have any characters who do it, or have some psychological catharsis through it, like maybe lazur or insul? i dont know who to picture as particularly more athletic than others or if you like the aesthetic of muscles itself over twinks

just had an experience which reminded me of you. I'm dealing with covid right now. im feeling bad. I'm having to pressure wash out taco bell shit with a bidet. as i try and squirt out the water. i realize what the feeling in my throat is. I'm over the side of my plastic bathtub/shower combo. I vomit. it's bad. i take a moment to recooperate, when i take an actual look at the watery mess.
i realize that strewn throughout it's general transparency are little teal streaks of Mountain Dew Baja Blast. at this point. i truly understand what it means to be the aphid fagthing omelas child for an e-sports team.

I am not fully caught up with leash or cunt and apparently he doid regardless but I just saw the name Joe Grammaton and am shot through with love. Joe Grammaton. So awkward and dignified, mumbled and clear. I would have such a crush on a boy named Joe Grammaton. Hope to meet him in the ether of culled ideas one night 🌙 joe grammaton🥰

Hi! So I'm the reptilian who asked something yesterday and I realized I left a couple details out- I apologize for that, I can be a bit forgetful sometimes. Anyways! All I wanted to say that I didn't say prior is that, as a former scout (was in the program for quite a while), I find Cancer (from Scout's Honor, that is- it's a lovely story so far, from what I've read!) to be an oddly relatable character. I have a lot of hazy memories of being disgustingly sick at campouts or summer camps, and, additionally, you put that feeling of being misplaced among the other boys in an excellent way!!!
The second thing I had in mind is less a comment and more a question- I really enjoy reading about the Innocentverse and things related to it, and I was thinking of drawing or writing about a Xrafstar character- my main question is the degree of variability between their physical forms! (I was thinking of making a kingsnake-esque dude with sort of a jutting, snoutlike jaw, and I was wondering if this was in the realm of possibility for them!)

so jonquil was from leashverse first? 👁 intriguing...

hello there!!! i'm not sure if you'll see this (i'm not entirely sure how this website works, haven't used it before), but i just want to say that i enjoy your work quite a lot from what i've read!! (so far it's been Your Mother Has Fallen Out Of Love With You, Protection From Gravity, and i started reading Scout's Honor, along some other misc stuff!)

i suppose i just want to say thank you! even if i'm new to your body of work i kind of feel as if a weird weight has been lifted, like some weird channel of clogged desire just got yanked open, and i plan to read more of it soon! (particularly planning on checking out Torture Works!)

on another note, i really like your writing style- it's definitely variable from story to story but a lot of it feels very sticky and wet and i like that! and your fixation on the gut (the bowels especially) in your stuff is something i feel as if i can relate to (reminds me of bataille!)

i suppose that's all- not really any questions at the moment, just a word of appreciation!
cheers from a reptilian boygirl!

apologies if this was asked b4...but if laz and rubi were xrafstarred what type would they be 🪰 personally i could see centipede rubicon but post boysplosion im not sure how it would affect the parasite

my gf said that fem riparian should lay eggs and i think that's beautiful... there are some parasite breeding ideas to be had here 💭💭💭

I dreamt that I was at a party at Calendula's mansion (for some reason), then that I was reading a full manga adaptation of Cunt Toward Enemy. I remember that the artstyle looked a lot like that of Tsurugi no Kuni no Arnis (which I only found out about and read because you put images from it in your Leash shrine).

I was quite disappointed in the lack of real-world CTE manga when I woke up.

what software was maggot therapy made in and would you recommend it for beginner videolaga makers? i really like the checkpoint/chapter select system and i rlly wanna make my own videolaga but ive never done it before

How does Riparian react to menstrual smells?

tboy Insul. Insul with a pussy would be breathtaking

tboy oenone ,????

since its the season, how do you think insul, trianon and oenone would celebrate christmas?

imagined tboy cancer prize ….

i feel like cancer prize would be so so good slotted into a medical role. probably not a doctor but a nurse, maybe in the ER or a field hospital... the irony of trying so hard to be virtuous and heal the sick while having an easily upset stomach and mind, the attempt to put distance between yourself and the sick because it would be an acknowledgment of your own failures to show visible sympathy and kinship with them, the cleaning chemicals, the long periods of extreme sleep deprivation, the substance abuse, the caffeine diarrhea... it's all so him to me

I was recently hospitalised for severe guts-related issues and reading 18 Foot Leash really helped me get in the appropriate shitting mindset. Thank you very much.

I loved the vibe of the horrid seaside town and I'm happy Cancer got to stumble through so much of it.

hello! i am only mildly familiar with your work but i started reading cupbearer to the gods after snooping around your digital presence and i must reccomend you Co-Ire by rene scherer and guy hocquenghem if you have not read it already. non-fiction "pedopunk" analysis of childhood with Zoroastrianism terms used

I'm legally changing my name soon, and with it i also get the option to pick a new middle name for myself, after thinking it over for a few weeks i think i'm going to go with Tria. Thank you for making a girlboy faggot being which i can identify with so closely.

I had a dream in the Cupbearer universe that I wanted to share: in the dream, rasts were treated like active shooters and there were all kinds of protocols for what to do if one got into an environment with kids (insert Summer Heights High “there’s a paedophile in the school!” clip).

Every school had alarm levers on the walls which released a disabling shockwave when pulled. These were extremely powerful rape alarms wired into the national grid. They were supposedly designed to incapacitate rasts but in reality they delivered most of their charge into the student who activated them and surrounding kids. There was a very Serious and Concerned Conversation happening around how to stop children using the alarms for non-rast reasons, like pulling the lever because they’re about to get beaten up or they don’t want to take a test. There were special assemblies where reformed teens would be like “I pulled the lever because I felt bad and now I have lifelong vestibular problems, don’t do it!!!” and “pull the lever on a rast and you’re a hero, anything else you’re just dirt”.

No one was talking about how the real purpose of the shockwave was to render children unconscious so they wouldn’t remember being molested and if they never woke up who cared. There was a dog girl idol called Coco Distemper and she released a single where she discussed it in elliptical terms to avoid controversy lol. THANK UOU FOR MAKING MY DREAM THEN READING IT ^-^

just wanna let u know that i’m a long time reader and lover of everything you do, owner of all your published works and will buy any future physical books you put out. you have my support and continued attention.

sometimes i think that i am too dumb to understand your stories, despite my love for them. Should i get dumber?

I love Cupbearer so so much, the mere fact that it exists in the world feels like some kind of miracle??? I can't thank you enough for writing it TToTT Are there any other Certified Pedopunk Classics you'd recommend?

Not a question, but I for one would be very happy to read more Cupbearer.

read cupbearer to the gods & i am no longer normal... fascinating! cuts like a scalpel! hooked in my brain! i would love to see more of veau & y...

i had a very elaborate dream in which i was living in your house which was this sort of mall-bunker with a weird black metal theme after a terrible accident and i had very bad burns across my face and i kept finding living larvae and flies inside of my blisters and terrible things kept happening and the police were trying to get people

i would buy a physical version of 18 foot leash so fast.. i cried tears of joy reading throat secrets because i felt like i could never read anything else i wanted and loved so much even if i paid 10 or 20 people to write vomit incest. everything youve written will live in my heart forever but 18ftl is something special. dont underestimate your vomit pervert fans you are feeding us something so delicious and perfectly engineered to puke back up ❤️💕

I had a dream that was somehow inspired by your work despite not having any of your characters or settings. In the dream I awoken on my couch and was partially blind and found it hard to move. I heard people talking in another room and suddenly a model-attractive, blonde haired man and woman ran out of my bedroom. I followed them out to the communal hallway but they'd climbed the stairs and were throwing objects at me. At this moment I realised I'd been turned into something like a blind, cyborg hermit crab, crippled and partially blind, with no limbs but 4 short legs. The couple then ordered food, and when the delivery driver showed up, the stabbed her. She ran across the street and I followed her to a glowing ritual circle, where she did some sort of spell that turned her into a massive whale, with exposed organs and bones and cybernetic parts. She then inhaled deeply to try and swallow the aggressive couple, but they turned into 4 smaller white whales or dolphins, and she choked on them then exploded. The dream then shifted to me watching these events unfold on my TV, with my friends, in my sitting room which was now made of red and blue latex furniture. One of my friends commented that you had written this movie, and I woke up.

ghost mtn came back!!!!!!!!! how do u like his new stuff? is it as good as 100 acre woods?

I got two of my friends to read SeriWeak and now I'm kinda fucking on both of them and I can't lie, the Insul/Trianon roleplay leaks in sometimes. Your work feels like a lovely parasite that I'm helping spread to other peoples bodies and I love it so much, thank you for being such an amazing artist.

ADORE 18 foot leash: scout's honour. Might be my favourite thing from you. Would love to read more or buy physical copy in the future. Thanks for sharing!

i would love to hear you pronounce the word delicatessen.

how many answers are on the seriweak personality quiz?

all the love in the world for shapeshifters and shadows and masks <3

just asking to be sure I'm using the correct terms, but do you consider yourself "not transfem" or just "not a trans woman".. or something else, in case I got something wrong in there too? Apologies since you've had to reiterate gender stuff a lot already. Thanks!

the maximum softness capable of being exerted by all machinery is so deliciously painful. what if someone built you to be a gun and then hated you for it? what happens when you, the one not masked to amuse or comfort or put at ease, show through, and prove yourself right in such an awful way? vindictive, vindication. you know they hate you, but no one says it, and that's worse. the fake woman, the dangerous woman, the not-a-woman-at-all thing. you're so attuned, you can see what people are not saying. thank you.

is...is the implication that in trying to summon an angel, cancer pulled riparian

been thinking a lot about greenwich. i've been associating her a lot with lingua ignota's music, and may end up compiling a playlist, but mostly i'm wondering if there's anything you associate with her? any other art, including music?

i got Blake as my personality test answer what am I supposed to do with this information

cte is insane to me because each time i finished a chapter i was like 'ok this is the end of the movie, i can stop looking' AND THEN THERE WAS MORE. very cinematic expereince. i love how it gave me temporary chills ptsd to distract from the cptsd, making me terrified of innocent and normal redlights... i'm only on part 4 i think (rubicon is incredibly hot cripple) but i wanted to let you know.

today i realized that i dont have to use a language that oppresses and divides me and i can just call myself a xrafstar instead bc that covers everything, bc none of my issues can be easily unwound from the tangle of who i am and are in fact nebulously soaked through with The Ooze. i no longer have to submit to an inadequate self-description that wants to cut me to pieces and label me and in fact justifies the torture imprisonment and murder of so many like me, nor do i have to reaffirm an essential humanity that is nowhere to be found. and honestly i just fit the description in general bc i am also addicted to sugar sex and violence. insert "on all levels except physical" meme. my greatest dream is that in addition to making me hairy, smelly and sterile hrt will give me a beautiful set of sensitive antennae with which to smell and feel the wondrous world, and a set of wings would also be nice. but i can wait and settle for lesser erohazards in the meantime. this is the most free ive ever felt in my life. and it's all thanks to you :-]

does cancer prize officially have any gi illnesses or is he just a general pukeshit fountain?

can't tell u how much lazurwich means to me. thank u for throwing some juicy red meat to the followers of the character i relate to heavily x character i think is rly rly hot thread.

i've read three of your books physically now, and i've noticed that the print in all of them is kind of massive compared to most other books (well, books targeted at adults, i mean) that i've encountered. i really appreciate this, since i tend to get overwhelmed and lose my place when there's too much text on the page. is there a similar sort of thing at play in your use of large print? or is it just an artistic choice? or something else entirely?

Are you by any chance a fan of Chuck palahniuk? Your writing reminds me a little bit of his, stylistically, particularly his earlier books

hi! i’m new here and obsessed with everything going on with your work, but don’t know where to start! where would you recommend? would you be willing to give a brief little rundown of your works/characters? :>

also i had surgery on halloween and the whole time i was like "fuck i hope i don't croak before CTE ends." i survived with a major complication! rubicon i'm rooting for you blow everything up forever and get that old man ass

THEY SUITCASED HIMMMMMMMM

im quite late to the party but i recently finished serious weakness and it sort of feels like you bored into my brain and pulled out a piece of the scared stuff. like i feel like you shouldve needed consent to write this much about me. its fine though, you did it eloquently and beautifully.

its shocking just how on the pulse of humanity you are. the future of SW would seem ironic if, like, my dad didnt watch rags, and my mom wouldnt put on the last song in the official xrafstar seri wea playlist in the car all the time while i was growing up. its too close, i dont even know if you know how bad it really is.

i dont have a question really, just fanboygirling, and coping, but if you have any words of advice for the latent insul/trianoncel i'd love to hear

it's been over a year since i read serious weakness and i've thought about it often but no scene has stuck with me more than twenty garden salads. like every single time i prepare a meal and eat i think about "twenty garden salads, no dressing" and trianon all fucked up in the car and covered in lettuce and forcing bits of salad down, it's so vivid. so yeah i guess i want to thank you for making art that has lodged firmly in my mind 💜

I'm happy to see your Twitter back! i was there at the minute it got banned, and i cursed so fucking loud it's silly.
Im so happy to see people still cosplaying tria for halloween, patron saint of girlthings with something unfixable bursting through their souls like a prolapse.
-Faker!!

congratulations on your return to The Everything App... i was so frighten. i was worried nobody would show me the path to redemption and love but here you are again. hope you had the happiest of halloweens <3

Hello! I was trying to break out what Trianon is saying in Morse during some of the scenes of Serious Weakness with my friend who works Naval Comms. We got: "M--NIISITITS-5HESSSHSSS"

And then, "No" repeating on. Well. Thr "No" pages...

congrats on getting ur twitter back!

i dressed up as some take on tria this halloween. thank you for writing serious weakness https://imgur.com/IHx49BO

I've been wanting to let you know how seen I felt with trianon's obsession with calories and I just never really got around to it, but reading throat secrets got me off my ass. Basically: thank you for putting into words that horrible, strange, humiliating fear of that feeling of food absorbing into your body, as if it'll change you into something disgusting. It's like, yeah, I know I know, puking bad, but it really is about the fear. Fear bad enough to override whatever consequences you get with puking a box of chocolates (which hit too close to home)

Also, I was a bit stunned to see your twitter get killed (which is why I checked your blog and went ahead and read throat secrets while I was at it) and ofc you can just ignore this if you get other messages on it but got any plans for what you'll do or where you'll go? I like seeing your updates and what you're up to. Thnx!

love u.. its so unfortunate u got suspended cuz ur intermittent posts were some of my favorites

leash playlist?! I can’t find it… can I have it here please

hi! I just wanted to tell you the song "scroll of sorrows" by machine girl reminds me of riparian, while "status" reminds me of cancer (: 🪰

yesss lazur with the playstation ambience...okay a part two. what is rubicon and cancer's go-to music? i can see rubi liking gabber & stuff. also government hooker by lady gaga comes to mind 💣. i saw the playlist for leashverse but wasn't sure if that was inspiration songs or songs for the characters

sorry if this has been asked before, do you ever plan to collect all of CTE into one place, like a printed work someday? 🖤

reading riparian is really fun as a being with a very sensitive sense of smell... can't avoid that awareness, can't avoid knowing what other people smell like, can't be not conscious of how that sense affects us even when we don't want to be affected, how much it controls our perception in spite of our supposedly better senses/awareness of people and spaces...

i did some art after one of ur works, anywhere i could send it for u to see? :]]] love love your work, makes me rlly happy whenever i see u posted something <3 💤💤

your stuff has really been helping me through a lot and i had no idea how much stuff you were involved in that i've been tangentially related to for the past half decade. torture works helped me fully delve into your catalogue and i am so glad i did ❣️❣️ you rock!!!!!

since other ppl are already saying it i want to let you know that your stories have always meant so so much to me since the day i found you sometime in my early teenage years. i will forever be grateful to you for finally allowing me to put the bad things that are happening to me into context, and i pray/hope (nonreligiously) for both our continued health and safety... i want to live in a world where good things happen to us! and i want to show you my tribute when it is finally complete... i hope you find a joy of some kind today, preferably large but small would be acceptable too. as long as it's there for you. inasmuch as we can be, we will be okay. 🦋🐌🐛🦟🦗🐜🐝🐞🦂🕷🕸🦐🦞🦀<- xrafstar parade for you

i just thought about how much i appreciate the masturbation scenes you write <3 they are so full of character and they inspire me greatly

what kind of music do riparian & lazur listen to? rip seems like he would listen to white noise really loud. and enjoy it

i apologize for how many questions this is and no worries if you don't want to answer ;;

do you mind (or like) being asked questions about your series & worldbuilding? i don't want to be super annoying here i just have. so many questions about the world. love to know how things work. but i also get if it's like "wait and see" for it

are "original" (in parentheses because it's your would they're just livin in it) characters made for different 'verses okay or would you prefer if people only interacted with the canonical characters as they are

AND

Hello porp I would just like to tell you how much I love leash and every story in it. Burrowing deep into the unspeakable human experience and emerging with something cherished,,,,,
Some curious questions:
Could someone be xrafstared twice or would the parasite be too possessive to let that happen? Thinking about how on the atoll we have currently only seen riparian but I wonder…
Also…is it just me or does scoutverse riparian seem a lot more xrafstarbrained than coffeeverse riparian? The parasite seems a lot more dominant/the main framework of mind here while in coffee he seems so much more human in the style of malice he harbours.